Motivation

I am in a happy place.

This is a problem as my motivation for weight loss is when I am stressed, upset or unhappy. Funny thing that when things are good my body screams for food. When things are bad I simply cannot eat.

Well I ain't going to go make myself depressed to loose weight and I cannot seem to find the motivation to stick to a "fall over and die starving" no calorie intake. I seem to have stabilised around 97 pounds (44kg's) now with a calorie intake of 700 - 1000 per day. I would really like to have stabilised at a lower weight though. I feel rather heavy at this weight, I feel chubby and ewww. Like my body is slathered in a layer of blubber.

Well we shall see how things go this week, I have decided to give up on the idea of a goal right now. I have my prelim tattoo design consultation tomorrow. I promised myself I would not do this if I was not down to at least 93 pounds. Well looks like I am going to break my promise to myself.

Our weather is getting colder and colder, I am craving warm fatty food. Stupid hibernation mood has set in preparing for winter. I seem to get way too cold when I weigh 93 pounds, I think my body has baulked at that.