Introduction

I have started this blog as a diary for myself. I am working things out, trying to find a balance and I think writing my story will help me.



Introduction: My name is Leela (pseudo name of course) I have had issues surrounding weight and eating since I can remember.



Lets start with my current statistics then we can move swiftly on:



Current Weight: 43kg's = 94.6 pounds

Height: 1.57m = 5'2

Goal weight: 41kg's = 90.2 pounds

Highest weight: 50kg's = 110 pounds

Lowest weight: current weight

Age: 34 on 29 April

BMI: 17.3

Body Fat: 11.6



I have had issues with anorexia & bulimia over the past 20 years. I have been a calorie restrict'er all my life, some times more obsessive than other times. I do not plan this blog to be any kind of tool to anorexics or bulimics, this is not my intention however it is part of who I am and I am guessing will centre a lot around this subject. I do NOT advocate / endorse / encourage these diseases however I am trying to find a balance for myself and this is what this blog is all about.



I am married and do not have children. I have two sisters and a mom ... all severely over weight. My husband is thin with a BMI of 18.5 ... he can eat anything even at 38 years old *sigh*.



I have recently found the CRON way of life and have found this to be a light at the end of the tunnel. For me this is a way to channel my obsession with food, calorie counting, scale watching and general addictive behaviour. I have never been healthier, fitter, or happier with my body as I am right now thanks to this. I have recently come to believe that one can be an anorexic and still be healthy and I hope that with this blog I can share my experience.



I am also an alcoholic. I have recently gone cold turkey and given up alcohol ... not only for my health and good grief the calories in that stuff but also because I get very nasty when I drink, my poor husband gets the brunt of it so to loose weight and save my marriage I divorced the bottle.



Unlike most eating disorder "book cases" I have never been sexually abused.



Please note I would not classify myself as an anorexic though. I have never been diagnosed or treated for any eating disorder. I do recommend that if you think you have an eating disorder that you talk to some one about it and find the necessary help.