Bad bad bad

(Insert crap here that I deleted - it involves those closest to me, power games, nastyness etc) Of course it is ALL my fault as per usual.

... and I am going into the "starve" mood ... wish us luck and hopefully we all survive at the end of this "STUPID HATE IT" holiday season.

I am down but not skeletal yet HA! Perhaps by next week if the dark mood continues.
Hugs to you all ...
O30T

The struggle

The struggle continues ... down to 43kg's then back up to 44.5kg's ... I guess you could say I am stable and probably at a reasonably healthy weight right?

BUT ... it's not good enough for me. I don't like it.

The temptation to just NOT eat is so fierce. If I just DON'T eat then there is little to worry about hey?

Because I simply cannot be trusted around food ... I just don't have the will power any more.

I hate food, I hate eating, I hate shopping, I hate my inability to control myself.

*sigh*