The week-end

I was looking at photo's of me back in May at around 41 kg's ... I have to agree with my husband, I was really looking a bit too thin. I do feel 42kg's however was perfect so my aim is to get to around 42 with the scope to move between 42-43kg's. I think that is a reasonable weight, thin but not over the top too thin.

This w/end was a disaster!!!

Lunch out on Sunday was not too bad ... we all had the chili-chocolate pot which is essentially about 50g Chocolate syrup (like Herchies) with a bit of espresso & chilli's added. All in all not over the top in calories. However even though I had a Greek salad starter & muscles/squid in tomato sauce there was a lot of olive oil added to every thing. BUT it was not a bad day over all.

HOWEVER on the Saturday I went to a wake ... that was a total disaster, platters of yummy food *great big sigh* and I could not resist!!! The chocolate cheese cake was just incredible. I left feeling totally stuffed.

The scale was not a pretty sight yesterday or for that matter today. I am back over 43.

We went out for lunch today and I was pretty good - no dessert ahhhh my self control was impressive.

I am finding though that things are going quite well these past two weeks back on CRON. Yes, a few cringe worthy days, but all in all not bad. I am quite proud of myself and I am sure if I keep up the healthy eating & exercise I should get back under 43 again by the end of the week and down closer to 42 by mid November.

Shopping

I went shopping yesterday for T-shirts ... I got some really nice tight fitting ones, all Organic cotton and really comfortable.

Our spring as usual is windy and not exactly warm but I don't really have any T-shirts that fit me and they look so good with my skinny jeans so hopefully I will soon be able to wear them with out jumpers over.

My weight is looking good and I am feeling incredibly positive at 42.8kg's / 94.2pounds this morning ... I am looking forward to seeing 42kg's again though. And there it will stop ... I don't really want to go below 42 again. People start to complain (rolls eyes).

We have lunch tomorrow with family at a greek restuarant so this should be a good test of my will power ... can I say no to dessert?

I hope so, I am feeling so good and 42 is just in my grasp again after 2 weeks of good eating, there is no point in ruining it now.

One step at a time

Things are still up and down really but getting much better.

I am down to 43kg's / 94.6 pounds which I think is a good slow weight loss over all and considering there have been a few stumblers for me.

What I am most happy about is that I am back to 3 meals a day and keeping it pretty healthy. For the first time in months we went out for lunch yesterday and I had the will power to say no to dessert.

My body is looking good again and I am starting to feel comfortable in my skin.

My husband has asked me not to drop below 42kg's / 92.4 pounds so I guess technically speaking I only have 1kg to loose.

The problem I find is then maintaining ... I usually drop below and then struggle to get back up. It becomes a roller coaster ride of not finding a balance.

Here is hoping I can find a balance to maintain at 42 ... when I get there of course LOL.

Going ... going .... (waiting for the gone!)

Well blow me down with a feather, I am 42.6 kg's this morning.

Just a few days back on CRON and such a quick weight loss?

Such a struggle for 3 months to get my eating back under control and my body kindly rewards me for my healthy eating and exercise regime again by rewarding me on the scale.

OK I do know this is simply just a "trick" because you cannot possibly loose fat so quickly. I know that I need to continue this for a good few weeks before we get back to my clothes fitting better again.

Which brings me to the quick fix fast diets that do the rounds usually in Spring / early summer. Most people loose a few pounds with a healthy or some times not so healthy diet and then think *whoot* I can go back to eating just the way I did.

And what happens? Voila in just a few short days / weeks they pick it all back up again. That is simply because the scale has a way of tricking you into thinking that you lost the weight when actually all you lost was a bit of water and some times muscle mass. So to actually LOOSE weight permanently one really needs to eat healthy, have a variety of foods and up your exercise permanently! However once you are a little under your Goal Weight you can start to add more calorie higher foods like cheese or bread to the low calorie diet, to ease your body back into a higher calorie but still keeping the healthy habits.

I have to admit though I am not terribly good about this ... I tend towards the all or nothing so either its healthy low cal or way too much of the other stuff. Though I must say I do still try to at least have my wonderful organically grown vegetables from my garden at least twice per day (even when I am binge eating).

*sigh* oh well let's see how it goes I am feeling pretty positive and far more in control again. Even though this weight loss was over my period ... I do still feel a bit bloated and it's taking a while still to get my energy levels back up.

Anyhow ... happy spring to me! My body rocks, I am grateful that it has given me this little boost of self confidence to get me started back on CRON and healthy eating.

Creeping up on me

Not sure if any one actually reads here but ANYHOOOO here is an update and long in the coming.

My out of control eating habits have eventually caught up with me *sigh* and I have started CRON more stringently and have made promises to myself to keep up with it this time around. No off days, no well perhaps tomorrow days, every day is a CRON day!

Considering the copious amounts of food and calories I have been consuming I have 2-3 kg's (4.4 - 6.6pounds) to loose to get back to the point where I feel comfortable again in my own skin. Right now I feel like a tub-o-lard. I can simply not even imagine that I EVER weighed 5-7 kg's (11 - 15.4 pounds) more than I currently weigh OMG that is just shocking.

So *gulp* as of this morning I weigh in at 44.2 kg's (97.2 pounds). Howly crap how did that happen? I am almost back where I started in March.

This is definitely not water weight or "one of those days" because the new clothes I bought for my new body are now fairly tight on me ... so this is FAT .... not muscle because I have NOT been exercising this is simply put 2.5kg's (5 pounds) of FAT and it needs to go.

The Vicious cycle

The cycles that our body plays on us I have found is determined by weather. Warm weather means your body almost craves low fat, low sugar foods ... cold weather means your body craves high calorie "comfort" food. The cycle of summer and winter and the cycle of lean and *cough* padded. It is the body's natural rhythm of things, the way the body keeps it's self warm and "hibernates" ... we are less active on cold days and the body stores food during this cycle.

When the weather warms up it is time to be active, hunt and gather, the body needs to go into the lean and muscular phase where it is fit and strong.

Breaking the cycle of hibernation is a hard one ... we as humans have evolved into a rather lazy creature that has every thing on hand ... we no longer hunt and gather, we whip out a credit card and shop on line. We no longer use our bodies for the purpose intended, we use machines to mass produce our goods. We no longer sustain farm and we no long have a need to ride horses or run for miles to meet basic needs. For this we have developed into some thing our minds don't understand.

Many of us wish to be thin ... yet the cycle of hibernation can never be broken. We are simply too lazy to even walk down to the local shop.

If we listen to our bodies ... really listen to what it tells us and discipline it when it gets a little crazy, have the self discipline and ability to say "NO" occasionally, try to use our bodies in a more active way, we could all be turning the table on the fat cycle.

The wobbely CRON

I have to admit that I wobble when it comes to CRON ... I don't think it is at all possible to stick to such a stringent eating plan ones entire life. So as a compromise I have given myself permission to eat "bad" over week ends and "healthy" during the week.

I have always kind of stuck to this theory, my entire life and it seems to have worked out quite well for me.

My weight still hovers around the 42.8 - 43.5kg (94.2 - 95.7 pounds) mark. I would like to get back below 42kg's (92 pounds) but to be honest hubby LOVES my body the way it is now ... I have BOOBS!!! HA!

I have always found though that once summer comes along I naturally drop a kg or two so it will be interesting to see what happens this year with my lower weight. I have also found a correlation between the craving for chocolate and cold weather. My will power simply fades as soon as it starts raining LOL. I think the main thing is just keeping a check on my weight and simply just NOT letting it get above say 43.5kg's which I seem to have been pretty successful at doing this winter.

Funny enough though as soon as the sun comes out I crave exercise, fruit and salad! Bring on summer please ...